Growing Up Gay :: Personal Narrative Writing

Growing Up GayWhen I think back of my early childhood, I can remember moving with my parents and little babe to a city in southern Sweden called Trans. I started in a new school, and I was fascinated, in a rather special way, by a particular boy in my class. composition my thoughts at that time were not particularly sexual (I was nine at the time), I often thought more or less whether or not I thought this boy beautiful. I had problems settling the issue in my mind, but nevertheless, I looked at him ever so often, and I felt pleasure while doing so. As time went on, as I entered puberty, I began to take a more active, albeit still very discrete, interest in other boys. While in the locker room after physical education, I detected that I was sexually attracted to several of the other boys, and I as well as saw many boys walking around the school corridors who caught my attention. Sometimes I looked them up in the schools photo catalog to see what their names were, and in my liber ate time, I often dreamt about organism physically close to them. But during this period of adolescence, I never really thought about what I was. wholly the things that took place in the emotional-sexual realm were, admittedly, real and concrete to me I experienced real feelings for other boys (love, infatuation, sexual attraction). But at the same time, on an rational level, I never confronted these feelings, and so I continued having them without worrying about them or trying to transform them in any way. They just were, and that was fine with me. While some opponents of homosexuality often claim that it is unnatural (a claim which is thoroughly refuted in the essay Homosexuality and the Unnaturalness Argument), for me, my homosexual feelings were very natural indeed. When I was 16, I became a Christian, which complicated matters quite a bit. After a conversion in the summer of 1984, during which I confessed Jesus Christ as my lord and savior, I joined the Pentecostal Church by being baptized on December 9. While I felt great satisfaction about being a part of the Christian church, I gradually encountered attitudes among fellow Christians and in the Bible which were rather hostile towards homosexuality in any form. I pick out that negative attitude, and I became quite a vocal homophobe.